Olivia and I had the opportunity to attend the wedding of some dear friends of ours two weekends ago. As I sat and listened to this young couple say their vows, I couldn't help but reminisce about the day that Jeremy and I made our covenant before God. My Daddy often says that he loves my Mama more today than the day he married her. I can say the same after seventeen years of marriage to Jeremy. The mountaintop moments have been amazing. The births and adoption of our children stand out as the most impactful of these. But, after all of these years, it's the valleys that have intertwined us together so tightly that I have no doubt we will be together until death.
Those valleys have been excruciating, but God has graced us by His never failing presence and by giving us each other. At my lowest of lows when fear and guilt and sorrow have taken my very breath away, Jeremy has always been there. His loving honesty has been an instrument of grace God has used to snap me out of deepest despair time and again. And when he has felt lost in the sufficating darkness God has called Him to face, I have been his compass to help guide him back to the path.
Our love is something that I never want to take for granted. Statistics vary, but many cite the divorce rate for parents of special needs children to be as high as 80%. And the risk of divorce is even greater when a couple has more than one special needs child. Statistics like this don't surprise me. It's the relentlessness of the disorder that I believe is most taxing. It hijacks all normalcy. Jeremy and I would both tell you that the endurance of our marriage has been totally due to the grace of God. We do things wrong more often than right. I'm sharing all of this primarily as an opportunity to praise the Lord for His mercy in our lives, but I also want to give hope to other couples facing the trials of this life.
When we TRUST Jesus, HE will never leave us or forsake us. He is in control of every aspect of our lives. His sovereign plan is something that we need to grasp hold of. Jeremy often paraphrases his friend Thad saying that "we have tied the knot in the end of our faith rope and we are holding on." You may have moments in this life where you feel forsaken and alone, BUT GOD! He is with you, and you can rest in the fact that He is in complete control of the storm. And the trials that HE has called us to face bring Him glory and are for our eternal good.
Seventeen years ago, we had no clue where the years would take us. Today, we have no clue what the future holds for us. But we are confident of two things: God is worthy of our trust, and, if God wills, we will face the future together.
Because of His Grace,
-The wall padding for the therapy room is supposed to be delivered sometime in the next week. We are so excited to see the final pieces of this project falling into place. Thank you to all who have given to bring us so far! Below is a video of Josiah enjoying his therapy room. What a blessing!